I have had a couple of over reactions to stuff recently. I think I would have been justified in being a tad narked/disappointed with the situations but I wasn't pleased with how I delt with them or how I allowed it to make me feel.

I think the stuff with dad might finally be starting to sink in, i feel totally alone and like im floundering. It's hard to be a chip off the old block without the old block.

It feels like I don't have a home or a family any more, my mom is pretty wrecked and I spend alot of time on the phone propping her back up but she isn't well but wont do anything about it. Being an only child of older parents is hard.

I know that i feel alone but in reality im not. I know that dad dying was a blessed relief and what he wanted. I know that I have people that care about me who i love to pieces. But I do feel shit still sometimes this probably make me sound an ungrateful git but life isn't a competition is who is justified in feeling shit and who isn't.

Thus this is a warning that your pinkoi will be "at risk" over the next few weeks during which time essential updates and patches will be installed to improve your overall pinkoi experience and to provide additional functionality.
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you see i think when famous people die it scares the shit out the majority of people who don't seem to realise, young or old, rich or poor and regardless of weather it seems fair or not people die. Fame and fortune despite being seen as the point of life will not save you.
Death is seen like a failure. It just happens.
This is not a tragedy, except for his kids.

For everyone else, welcome to real life, shit ain't it!

here comes the big curry covered aeroplane
<3

good news for those at the Wilson's tomorrow, is that I am baking. Bad news for afore mentioned waistline's is, that I am baking. \o/

Hrrmm
its annoying when you purposefully keep a few days free to catch up with a friend (on their request) and then you get told at the last min that they would rather hang out on their own.

I could have gone to wolves this week had I have known...

Well I guess I should confess that I am starting to get old
All the latest music fads all passed me by and left me cold
All the kids are talking slang I won't pretend to understand
All my friends are getting married, mortagages and pension plans
And it's obvious my angry adolescent days are done
And I'm happy and I'm settled in the person I've become
But that doesn't mean I'm settled up and sitting out the game
Time may change alot but some things may stay the same

And I won't sit down
And I won't shut up
And most of all I will not grow up
And I won't sit down
And I won't shut up
And most of all I yeah I won't grow up

Oh maturity's a wrapped up package deal so it seems
And ditching teenage fantasy means ditching all your dreams
All your friends and peers and family solomnly tell you you will
Have to grow up be an adult yeah be bored and unfulfilled
Oh when no ones yet explained to me exactly what's so great
About slaving 50 years away on something that you hate, about meekly shuffling down the path of mediocrity
Well if that's your road then take it but it's not the road for me

And I won't sit down
And I won't shut up
And most of all I will not grow up
And I won't sit down
And I won't shut up
And most of all I yeah I won't grow up
And I won't sit down
And I won't shut up
And most of all I will not grow up

And if all you ever do with your life
Is photosynthesize
Then you deserve every hour of these sleepless nights
That you spend wondering when you're gonna die

Now I'll play and you sing
The perfect way for the evening to begin
Now I'll play and you sing
The perfect way for the evening to begin

2 days ago I went to sainburys and brought the most lovely ripe conference pears I have brought from a supermarket in living memory. However it seems that we have been so warped by supermarket pears being picked and sold when they are green and hard as boils that, because they looked slightly yellowy no one had brought them (the rest of the fruit and veg section was bare) I assume because they looked bruised.

The last time I saw a banana in a supermarket that could be eaten on the day of purchase can also be measured in decades.

I so dearly wish I was a bit more settled somewhere and could have an allotment or a vegetable patch.

This lives in the pitt rivers in oxford and myself and tef saw it at the weekend...

by tim hunkin

my next placement is going to be on A and E! starts the 22nd of this month.

i think this could be good place to aim to be getting back on my feet...

Do you think your security can keep you in purity?
You will not shake us off
Above or below

from remote part/scottish fiction by idlewild

For the first time in 6months i can afford a haircut!

it would seem ill be in edinburgh from saturday til friday possibly although could be before that due to potential cat sitting issues...

yay, i have a super week with hughe and jemima and modulus.

grrr

i remeber now why i dont go into highstreet shops and try on clothes... apparetly im far larger than anyone who wants to buy a pair of jeans from topshop....

doom body doom